Tuesday, November 11, 2008

It's brutal.

I can't always put into words what I'm thinking. My words sometimes get jumbled and mixed and things don't come out the way I want them too. Maybe that means I need to just shut up sometimes and not say anything, I don't know. I open my mouth before really thinking of what I'm going to say. And sometimes I'm too honest. Most of the time after I've said something I replay conversations over and over again in my head beating myself up for what i did or did not say. Alot of the time I wish I could just redo it all. But I can't. And all I can do is accept whatever comes from what I said and learn from that experience.

Experience: the most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn. ~ C.S. Lewis